This is my dark place. I am alone. I sever all ties with reality. This is my mind, my imagination. This is where i am at my best. My words, my nonsense, my sarcasm, my humor. Love or hate, i don't care. This is my place. My Aria.
Monday, September 08, 2008
Thank You
Thank you all for the surprise. Thank you all for planning it so "meticulously". Thank you all for being there. Thank you all for everything.
I think i have a knack for appearing indifferent. Even if i really want to do something, i somehow make myself seem like i don't really care. Can't be good for my health or my mental sanity.
It's starting to eat at me really, this lack of decisiveness, lack of confidence, lack of anything really. I just sit and stare and maintain this air of nonchalance, when all i really want is to just do something, say something, anything at all. I'm usually pretty vocal, especially when my emotions get the better of me, but always, always when it comes down to this kinda thing, i just do nothing. It's like i shrivel up into insignificance.
Fear, i presume, is the foremost cause of all this.
On a sidenote, i was watching Friends and this sent me into peals of laughter. I still can't stop laughing when i see it.
